Leaving

So first off, I forgot how awesome hugs were. I really, so awesome, I miss them, got some awesome goodbye ones tonight. But yea, anyways, I'm really not looking forward to going back. Last year I was really unhappy. Like really extremely unhappy. I am so afraid that I will feel the same when I go back. This summer was so awesome in a million different ways. I feel so spoiled being out here, and I do not want to leave. When I was leaving JPL and when I was leaving the bbq today, all I wanted to do was dig my fingers into the ground and prevent anyone from making me go back. Can I stay? Please? Everyone else seems so excited for school to start, but I have this pit in my stomach that developed today and everytime I think about leaving, it gets stronger. I am excited about seeing people, but only you select few (pretty much the 3 or 4ish of you who read this). But yea. Me not want to leave.