shit

i'm turning into the type of person i used to be, the type of person i never wanted to be again. it's time for a turnaround

no pumpkin pie

egg nog instead... mmmmmm :-D

yea...

people really suck

oh yea???

people suck...

obsession

i just realized that i have an obsession with fantasizing about perfect moments. like walking outside cold fall day, taking in a breath and smelling the fresh fallen leaves.

or (again) walking outside on a cold fall day, taking in a breath and finding that smell that tells you that it will snow soon (my fav smell).

or going to delicious orchards and taking a sip of their hot apple cider, letting it trickle down your throat, feeling it warm you up inside and having this feeling of pure content.

or curling up in a blanket (with a guy of course...) by a warm fire, drinking hot chocolate and watching the snow fall outside.

or standing outside at night, a layer of snow on the ground, the snow is lightly falling, and you can actually feel the silence that it all creates.

wow-i love moments...

My Goals in Life

1. witness a tornado (and survive)
2. get a belly-button ring
3. see the aurora
4. perform on broadway
5. send people to mars
6. build robots for mars
7. get down to 120 lbs
8. travel to Europe
9. go on a cruise
10. win the lottery
11. get a tattoo
12. achieve pure happiness
13. make a difference in the world
14. save someone’s life
15. get married in the fall on a hilltop as the leaves are changing
16. travel to Alaska
17. live in Vermont
18. have 2 children
19. don’t have a mid-life crisis
20. design and build a house
21. get a college degree
22. have grandkids
23. stop biting my nails
24. travel into space
25. drive cross country
26. live in another country
27. watch a space shuttle take off
28. see two moons at the same time
29. see the stars collide
30. kiss in the rain
31. learn sign language
32. become fluent in 3 languages
33. make someone’s life better
34. make someone’s dream come true
35. be in a movie
36. swim in a large vat of spaghetti
37. swim in a large vat of pudding
38. swim in a large vat of jello
39. “even out”
40. invent something useful
41. be remembered
42. become a storm chaser
43. read a book that is over 1000 pages long
44. eat 2 large delicious orchard’s pumpkin pies in one sitting
45. row 2k in under 7:30
46. teach a lesson worth learning
47. become an archeologist
48. swim with dolphins
49. see a great white shark
50. create my own computer virus
51. spend an entire day just laying in bed for the heck of it
52. open a bed and breakfast in down east maine
53. solve the cube in under a minute
54. own a farm with lots of cows (so milk doesn’t put a dent in my wallet)
55. travel around the world in 80 days
56. invent a new kind of candy
57. own one of those tiny little candy shops that have shelves and shelves and table of candy crammed in as tightly as possible (like the one at boothbay harbor)

EDIT

edited installing love, left out like half the thing

I...

01. I hurt: when I am punched
02. I love: my amazing friends
03. I hate: fat
04. I cry: in sad movies
05. I fear: the death of those around me
06. I hope: for happiness
07. I'm saddened: by bunch of stuff
08. I feel alone: often lately
09. I kill: evil beings
10. I talk: to myself
11. I listen: to people
12. I break: everything I walk into
13. I see: my computer screen
14. I smell: nothing
15. I taste: peanut butter fudge
16. I work: in the summer
17. I remember: the past
18. I hold: onto what I can
19. I hide: from evil demons
20. I pray: very very rarely
21. I walk: kinda fast
22. I drive: ishmael
23. I read: when I get the chance
24. I burn: flammable items
25. I breathe: when the situation calls for it
26. I play: games...
27. I miss: having fun
28. I touch: my keyboard... sexy keyboard
29. I learn: a little everyday
30. I feel: confused
31. I know: nuu-ZING!! (i pray some of you got the sgt schultz reference)
32. I said: so things...
33. I dream: of better days
34. I have: a lot of work
35. I want: to feel it again...
36. I fell: into this rut
38. I need: cheese
39. I live: in an old run down apartment... with character
40. I die: never

sigh

...i miss it all, and long for it again.

Installing Love

Tech Support:: Yes, how may I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've decided to install Love. Can you guide me through the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running?

Customer: Let's see... I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.

Tech Support: No problem. Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely shut down.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not run on internal components." What should I do?

Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance, then select the following files: Forgive Self, Realize Your Worth, and Acknowledge Your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes a while, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

food I don't like

just to clear things up with people so there are no more questions, these are the foods I don't like. If you have any questions, comments or concerns, please comment on this post.

-steak
-whipped cream
-ice cream
-store bought cake
-dark chocolate
-french fries
-veal
-roast beef
-lamb chops
-cooked fish
-turkey
-pepperoni
-salad
-bbq sauce
-chocolate chip cookies
-nuts in food/candy (ie snickers, banana nut bread)
-chocolate chip pancakes
-pepper
-regular potato chips (must be either ruffled or flavored)
-any meat w/o sauce
-prime rib

duuuuuude

i need sugar

foo...

if i went into things with no expectations, i would come out much happier

from macki

http://www.theonion.com/content/node/41676

-Study Reveals Pittsburgh Unprepared for Full-Scale Zombie Attack

music

wow, i just realized how out there my taste in music is. the past few songs i've listened to have been edith piaf, cyndi lauper, disney, marvin gaye, beatles...

life

...is sooooo blah. :-/

short week

can't believe it. i got 7 hours of sleep last night. i dunno how that happened. freak of nature. 2 exams tomorrow (death). bunch 'o' homework due thursday (suffering minor injuries). then sleeeeeeeeeeep friday. :-D

dull

dude, my life has gone dull. i do the same things every week. every day. it's all repetative. nothing new, different, or out of the ordinary. it's making me feel like my life is going in slow motion.

higher ground

they really liked our dance!! it was "very impressive"! :-D

duuuuude

last night, justine and i watched like a million and a half episodes of gilmore girls, AND... ate a whole pumpkin pie. i've only split a whole pumpkin pie with someone once, and that was my second cousin when we were in florida.

social life

yea, my social life is still lacking. it's saturday night and from the looks of it i'll be watching gilmore girls, again. oh yea, and that pain in my back moved to my bad ankle. nothing else new. goodbye.

ps-exploding pumkins are awesome.

i'm old

i thought i was 19. apparently not. ouch. back. ouch. i walk around like an old lady.

aim

aim sucks, so i'm gonna be using one of my other sn's a while - "miss9i99les"

fortune cookie

Don't wait for others to open the right doors for you.

some issues

my screenname is having some personality issues

bye bye

good mood period is over. back to the sucky mood.

temptatious

i don't know why, but i woke up from my nap today thinking of chocolate. now i'm craving it. actually, craving two specific kinds...

Guylian Sea Shells...
Lindt Lindor Milk Chocolate Truffles (tho everyone who knows me well enough already knew that)




::orgasmic sigh::

nothing can beat swiss and belgian chocolates... and by that i mean very few things

too bad i don't actually have any

EDIT: yes, temptatious, i'm allowed to make up my own words

addiction

hi. my name is maggie, and i'm addicted to aim. it all started on july 14th, 1986... dude, like i have to stop. if you see me online, chances are i shouldn't be because i have massive amounts of work at all times. so yell at me. tell me to go away. and to do my homework. please.

good day

first time in like 2 weeks i've had a truely good day. i dare you to make tomorrow better.

new site

hi people. i created this because a) anyone can comment here and b)because i needed an account for a class anyways. figured while i'm at it i might as well. let me know what you think.